My Body Weeps Milk
My body weeps milk
and every sweet drop is for you
I've told it to stop
but still it flows
like the tears that leave
the taste of salt on my lips
My body shrinks
and the emptiness expands
echoing an aching silence
I chase memories like fading rainbows
your sweet voice
your peaceful gaze
your angelic smile
You washed away time
and painted on my heart
the secrets of love and joy
humility and selflessness
But I left you there
wrapped gently in white
the fresh soil that embraces you now
still caked on my hands
And with every anguishing step away
I knew I would forever be
chasing
fading
rainbows
Gone
without
no longer
no more
empty arms
shriveled insides
dried milk
shattered expectations
splicing my feet
lost
too late
nothingness
hollowness
suffocating Silence
gone
no breath
no heartbeat
never again
gone
Sweetness
on your breath a flower blooms
in your eyes the sky reflects the calm waters of eternity
with your smile a thousand years of happiness enters my heart
i keep you close
You hear my heart
in your sleep,
your sweetness drapes the world in a mist of dreams
the softness of your skin like petals floating on a breeze
your wings hidden by the light of stars
i keep you close
You hear my heart
- To our sweet Samira, love Mommy - 2011
Oh, Kasia.
ReplyDeleteIt is nine years since Isaac, our beloved first-born grandchild, died two days after his birth.
I can testify that the pain never goes away. But it can get softer, and -- somehow -- sweeter. Samira will still have much to teach you in this life.
"My Body Weeps Milk" is stunningly beautiful, and brought back memories of sitting with our daughter as her breasts overflowed with such tears. I am forwarding it to her.
We are all so sorry for your loss.